I am a missionary

I am a missionary to USA from Canada.

Seriously...

I came back home, Canada, this Christmas... and I feel like crying.

I am home now. But I have to go back to my mission field.

I've adopted the American cultures; I bury myself in the American soil, and I will bear much more fruits one day. I believe it. I live for it.

I am a missionary to USA.

panic attack

This is suppose to be my vacation, right?

I guess I am way too relax and got too loosen up; so that I even got a panic attack from this stupid enemy, fear. Grrr... I need to be alert when I am on a "cruise control" mode.

I am used to a "busy" schedule and always in the ministry mode in LA. Beginning of this year, I decided to come back to Canada for my vacation this Christmas; first of all I want to spend time with family and relax, secondly I need to stay away from "busyness" and be quiet before God. Also I give myself an assignment, that is to finish Impact leader's handbook.

I am still not spending enough time with my family and with God. I still have not started working on the leader's handbook.... OMG... that's why I had a panic attack.

No fear! No pressure! Keep fighting the good fights! Never give up!

Leave me, spirit of fear! In Jesus' name!

December 2009

I asked for 3 material things from God this year. One by one I received them in order.

1. A blue bicycle.

2. A MacBook Pro

3. A iPhone

Got them all before the end of 2009.

This is how the story goes....

"Seek God's Kingdom first and His righteousness, and ALL shall be added onto you!" - Jesus.

What more should I say?

this is church life...?

Why would people leave their church after investing such a long in their "spiritual" homes?

It saddens me when I hear that believers are leaving their "home church"... I can understand that there are no perfect leaders and no perfect churches. To me personally, a church is like family. You can have a big family, like the Italian Mafias... they would "disagree" with outsiders but they love their "brothers".

Follow the vision that God gives to the leader, unless the leader is not following the vision anymore. Love never fails.

NO! I want that!

No! I can't find anything.

Can I just get that? Pressing in? Grrr......

long day

I drove down to San Diego... now I am tired. Thanks, James! :-0

Sunday was great. With Evan Money sharing, God really showed me something that is our messages need to be simple but profound. I am excited to see that GodChasers Network is making history. Over 20 some leaders gather together under the same roof, some from BOLCCLA, some from Impact; as we gather together and shared hearts, I began to realize how much God wants to use this group of people. I want to be part of it too!

Although we were missing some leaders from other Bread of Life, I believe that the unity is undivided among the core-leaders. We made a covenant among the leaders; we shared dinner together (pizza). This is a divine covenant! haha... amen!

James shared something cool during the meeting, but somehow I forgot about it now... guess I am too tired now.

Anyway this is first youth leader's gathering in the history of BOL, USA.

GodChasers! Rock on!

tears

I need to unlock my heart more and more. I have not had tears for almost 7 days. God, would You touch my heart again?

People are talking about their nightmares and

God, I want more of You.

love always protects

Love always protects.

We talk about LOVE as Christians.

We think we know LOVE.

All of us want to receive LOVE.

God is LOVE.

God's LOVE causes Him to die passionately on the cross.

God's LOVE secures us in eternity.

Our eternity starts at the minute we are born.

Eternity with LOVE, or without it.

God's LOVE sets us apart from harm.

God shows up. LOVE shows up.

LOVE was presented this past Monday night.

We saw it. Felt it. Received it. Then gave it away.

Do you have the LOVE that protects you?

Leading people to Christ is fun!

Seriously... it is fun and exciting when leading a person to Christ.

The key is, share about God's love and demonstrate God's power!

So tonight I finally got to hang out with this guy, who I have wanted to hang out for a while. During dinner, I started talking about God and stuff. Anyway I just needed to get my points across with this guy.

After sharing about God's love and the gospel of Jesus Christ, I sensed that the Lord wanted me to give him this word of knowledge. So I did. He then started sharing about his life and words I gave him. At the end, he said, no one knew about this. Well I said, it's God. He loves you.

Next, I asked him if he wanted to accept Jesus. "Yes" he said.

One person at a time, hallelujah!

Your Kingdom come, God!

fear

Fear...

I have not had a sense of fear for a long time. Some people are going through tough times; they even try to hide themselves from the Lord (of course it doesn't work!). Anyway, my heart cried with them but I felt powerless to do anything for them. It's not my field to plow, I think. At least I tried. But I did pray a prayer that I wanted to feel how they feel; so that I could better help them. So God answered my prayer.

Annie and I are running very low financially this month. I had no cash to even put gas in the car this week. I was driving on an empty tank literally from Monday to Wednesday. The gas gauge showed below empty for 3 days but I was still driving from Arcadia to Cerritos then back to Arcadia on Tuesday. On Wednesday, the tank already showed empty for 2 days but I had to go down to Fullerton from Arcadia. I was worried while driving down to Fullerton. I don't know how to get back home... I don't want to push the car home... so I prayed.

One prayer - "Lord, please clear out the traffic like You divided the Red Sea." On Tuesday night as I drove back, the traffic was horrible on Fwy 605; I was afraid that on Wednesday it would be the same too.

Another prayer - "Lord, let the angels push my car back home. In Jesus' name."

As I was driving back, all the sudden, fear came around me. I was "afraid" that I couldn't go home. The feeling of insecurity surrounded me and I couldn't think positively about God. I was worried. Nevertheless I began to pray in tongue and praised God loudly in my car, but I couldn't feel the car was moving any faster.

While praising God, God reminded me of my prayer for those people who are going through tough times. He told me that this "fear and insecurity" is what some people are feeling; they are worried about their now and then. It's really about money.

I had no money to put gas in the car this time. Honestly my faith is being tested. God doesn't test the evil; God tests the good. Because I am created to be good, that's why God tests me! I thank God! Stay strong! Stand firm! God is good! I believe in Jehovah Jireh.

To those who are going through tough times...

I understand why you want to run away... when I found out about A.J.'s condition, I wanted to run away from God too. I was speechless toward my son's situation. It was not easy.

It costs me a son to know this truth... Instead of running away from God, I chose to run to Him. I overcame. You can too. Start running to God now.

When we ask God for more faith, God gives us more trials to exercise our faith muscle. That means we will face more obstacles and challenges! That's how our faith is being increased!

God, You are so wise!

season of a turning leaf

Today I found out what it means about being sensitive of which season you are in. I learned it from Evan. After he shared with me, I've come to realize that this is a season of equipping now. SOD has slowed down for the past 2 months after my return from Africa; I felt like I needed to stop for a while and Evan needed to catch up with some readings. Today after the chat, we both feel like it's time to commit to the schedule again. I have peace and ready to go forth.

God prepared the earth for us. When the season is right, the first man was created. It took God millions of years to make sure the earth is livable. The point is... we usually prepare the food and cook for hours but we only spend average 20 minutes to eat the food we make. God prepares us.

Also like weddings, the bride's parents spend average $20,000 on a wedding ceremony; the bride spends a year planning for the wedding, but usually it takes average 20-30 minutes for the ceremony to take place. God prepares us like He is preparing a wedding! Come on! That's a great insight, Jack!

When the season is right, God makes things possible.

picture of Your love

I got up this morning feeling tired. First thing I soaked in His presence, I didn't get much, didn't feel much. Showered and prayed then got ready to head out.

Driving back from LAX, all the sudden I began to ask the Lord to fill me up with His presence. The ache of my heart for God came back to me and hit me pretty hard while I was driving. I need to feel God every moment; I asked myself, "Is this what I want?" Such a longing heart. Is this from me or Him? I didn't care much anyway. Just want to know that He is near.

Auntie Sharon spoke to me about some leaders "playing with power" last night. I hope I am never that kind of person; but the power of God is very addictive (everything about God is addictive, I think). I don't want to play with Your power, Lord. I just want to enjoy Your love and accompany.

Hmm....

I was mad but sad at the same time when Evan told me about his experience at his old church this past Sunday. Evan said, "they are still doing the same things and singing the same songs when I was there 2 years ago. All young people left. Their messages are different from ours."

How can any Christians live without God's dominion? How can any Christians live by rules and traditions only and expect no blessings, no healing, no miracles from God?

Grrrr....I can't stand that! But I weep for them inside.

He draws a pretty picture for me today on my way back from LAX. Thank You, Jesus.

beautiful sunset

I had an interesting dream last night although I didn't sleep well. In my dream, we (Impact leaders) are sitting alongside this long table sharing about what we've received as our rewards in our life at this beautiful park.

Today interestingly I was in a park looking out at the sunset. It was beautiful... God used a variety of colors in the sky to show me how much He likes me.

I am not all that hungry of Him today after the special meetings over the weekend. I kindda know why I didn't have much spiritual appetite today. I need to rest more and early. I should stop writing now. I need to listen to the Holy Spirit. Don't sleep late, get up early to receive and be filled by the Holy Spirit.

Tonight auntie Sharon called me up and gave me some words she received on Monday morning. Just a right timing and right words. It was encouraging.

I repent. I need to rest more and early!

God will provide.

desire

Nothing I desire compares with You, Jesus.

I long for Your love.

This week especially I have had such an ache in my heart for Jesus' presence. I just can't get enough of Jesus. Annie and I went to auntie Sharon's house for prayer on Wednesday. I didn't feel as strong as the first I was there; but it was a different kind of intensity. I really relaxed before God, I was simply filled by the Holy Spirit on the inside. I was charged up inside but without much outward phenomena. As I was receiving prayer, I saw a bright light coming from every angles as my eyes were closed. I wanted to enter into God's presence so bad; I started to use my own desire/force/way or whatever you wanna call it, but it didn't work; the light then disappeared. I asked Jesus to take me to His presence, then the light came back again.

I am still learning to enter into His glory. I often can feel His presence when He shows up. But now I am not contented with only Your presence; I want to see You glory, Jesus! If I die, I die. I need to see Your glory, Abba Father.

God, I desire. I hunger. Take me to Your dwelling place.

林強-向前走

omg...stinky Johnny... this video clip got me all reminiscent of my youth! I had the same hair style back in high school!

可比 (Kobe) 是小飛俠!

under the light

Whatever we are facing in life, we need to remember one thing, that is to bring our burden to the light. There shouldn't be any grey area in our life.

Jesus said, "simply let your 'Yes' be 'Yes,' and your 'No,' 'No'; anything beyond this comes from the evil one."

We need to bring our everyday life, our relationship, our feeling or our character under the light of Jesus Christ. For God is light, there is no grey area in Him.

This generation will live and breath under the light of God. Amen.

God showed up in a South Pasadena home

Annie, me and Amy M. had a good time sharing and chatting at Amy's house in S. Pasadena. It is a very beautiful house and the view is gorgeous. We can almost overlook the entire LA from her living room. Beautiful! Thank God for such a wonderful view!

God showed up as we shared and prayed. I felt that Jesus was walking in the house as we ministered to Amy. She is so loved by God.

I am so blessed to have ministered to Amy with Ed when Amy came to Impact for the first time. Jesus touched her there as she was waiting for Rosita outside of Impact lady's room. Today Amy told us that she was healed both physically and emotionally after the prayers on that day. All the heavy weights or feeling disappeared and dissolved! God is so good!

We had a great time just loving Jesus and being loved.

btw...tonight's meal was great! Thanks chef Paul and little helper Annie!

found faithful

I wanna be found faithful, I wanna be found steady.

"I am not called to be successful, I am called to be faithful." - Mother Teresa

God has a special calling for us, that is to be faithful in whatever He calls us to do. It is one of the most important attributes of God. God wants His children to be like Him; being faithful is probably one of the characteristics that you will incorporate into the fabric of your being in these last days.

Without being faithful, there are many things we won't be able to accomplish. God is not looking for opportunists; God is looking for faithful men and women who will faithfully handle the little things that are always claiming their attention.

I believe that this is the end time, and God is looking for another generation of Noah who will faithfully build the ark to save his generation.

I am called to be another Noah for this end time generation.

New Season - Anniversary

New season - 3 years married with my wife.

3 years... wow, there were many things happened this past 3 years.

2006 October, Annie and I got married, I traveled to China frequently; I really travelled quite a bit then I got sick and tired of flying and being alone in China, but I was blessed to have a high pay job. I pastored a church while flying around...

2006 December, 20 some young people from Impact went to ONE THING in Kansas City. I was so touched by the video promotion. Good job, whoever made that video clip.

2007 January, Annie and I went to IHOP and received messages from Bill Johnson. That totally rocked my boat.

2007 Jan. - Sept. Supernatural encounters all the way at Impact! Angelic encounter, countless healing and miracles, Jesus encounter, etc.

2007 September, I was asked to move to Boston office for my job, but I declined. Unfortunately they had to let me go.

2007 November, I received a prophetic word from Bob Hartley regarding the young patriarch's calling.

2008 January, God answered my prayer, I became a design manager. I always dreamt to become a design manager. Later God asked me, "now I fulfilled your dream, will you fulfill Mine?" In less than 3 months, I told God that I am through with my dream. I prayed to God, I am ready to leave this job if You want me to; the following day, I was let go.

2008 March, I am still pastoring a church.

2008 May, 5 of us went to Lakeland Florida. I got electrocuted.

2008 July, Annie and I moved back to Arcadia. Financial reason, we had to leave Abbot Ave.

2008 August, Annie was pregnant. I got my ear pierced. First time I became a father.

2008 September, Impact moved out of the Learning Center. We moved to Wu-Shu Star.

2008 November, Annie and I traveled back to Taiwan for my grandfather's funeral. I missed my grandfather.

2009 January, Annie found out about A.J.'s condition. It was the darkest day of my life. We shared the same sorrow on that day.

2009 March, Johnny and Impact threw a baby shower for A.J. We did believe in God. Still do.

2009 April, A.J. passed away in our arms. Annie and I said a prayer to Jesus to receive A.J. It was a day of victory. God had victory over death and He triumphed over the devil in A.J.'s life.

2009 May, Annie's mom got healed and saved. Annie, me, Jennifer and Shinny went to Seattle for mission trip.

2009 June, A.J.'s memorial service. We all missed him.

2009 July, Annie, me, Joy and Evan went to DC for mission trip. God loves us.

2009 August, Annie, me, James and WenShian went to Togo, West Africa for mission trip. God showed up again.

2009 Sept.-Oct. I am still in love with my wife, Annie. Our 4th year has begun...

Btw, I am still pastoring this church, Impact... how can I fulfill Your dream, God? Teach me.

New Season - New Wine Skin

If you've read my previous blog - New Season, you will be amazed of what I received from Auntie Sharon.

Wow... I am speechless.

I was sharing with Sarah, Ted and Tina about a new revelation of Impact ministry. One ministry - full of young and old spiritual parents and children.

Auntie Sharon's prayer simply confirms with the revelation that I received earlier. In her prayer, God shows her a new wine skin that is given to me. It's not an ordinary wine skin that is made out of animal skin or leather. It's made out of the Heavenly Father's heart; the wine skin is like the Father's (a father's) heart - the heart is still pumping and alive, not dead.

Of course there are more details in the prayer that I receive. I believe that we are on the right track as we focus on the spiritual parenting. Anyway... I need to head out now.

Rain

Raining season... some hate it, but I really like it. Well, it's not that I miss home, Vancouver Canada; the whole thing about the raining season is that it really gives a fresh beginning and plus everything looks new to me.

Chris and I went to play golf today while it was raining. We chatted for 30 min right by the driving range; it was a good fellowship. Chris has really improved in his golfing skill. Less than a hour, it started pouring. Thank God for rain! Playing golf in the rain, it could be a song.

Anyway... it's my mom's birthday plus it's raining; that really makes me want to go home to visit them. I told my nephew that I will take him skiing this Christmas; the boy, Kyle, is almost 3 loves to play sports with my dad.

I know God has a good plan for Impact's new location. I receive, Lord.

New Season - Lisa's baptism

I need to update my blog layout. Hmm... it's a brand new season for my page. Since I've already received a new Macbook Pro, I might as well do some cool designs for my page.

Sunday was really cool. Sarah Yang shared a really good message, which she shared it for the first time. We had a great privilege to hear it. God is good.

What really touched me was there were so many young people attending Lisa, aka MQ's mom's baptism. I believe that God is going to use this family for His Kingdom.

We had a good time sharing Kingdom business with all the coordinators and leaders; it's like a family. We are actually helping each other to run the race together. This is a race with a tremendous reward; we want to help one another to reach their goals. Thank You, Jesus for such wonderful people. It's the work that You began in us; I know that You will faithfully complete it in us!

I especially enjoy the prayer as we held each other's hands. Kingdom of God to me in this season = God's Family with His total sovereignty. Family is God original plan when He created Adam and Eve. God loves families; His heart is to restore families and bless them. God enjoys to dwell in a love relationship, which basically starts from a family.

New season - God's family in demand.

New Season

I am entering in a new season. I am not sure what it is yet, but in my spirit I feel something is changing. It's like a seed that is about to spout open to receive another chapter of life.

What season is it, Lord?

Two days ago, Annie and I were ministered by this lady, Auntie Sharon. I hesitated to go. "Why should I go?" I asked myself that question. I tried to push this meeting away. I didn't feel like I needed it. Plus I had a prior engagement with some of my leaders. Well...I went anyway, I was late for an hour. Before I went to Auntie Sharon's house, Sarah, Ted, Tina and I were at Cheese Cake sharing about their cell group, Unplugged. I remembered that I was telling them something that also shook me as well. It was a revelation! It was simple yet profound to me. I am stirred up by this revelation!

Spiritual Parenting is the key! Project Elisha is a must!

My revelation is, there shouldn't be a separate "youth ministry". There should be only one ministry, one congregation - both adults and "non-adults". God never wants us to divide His people or categorize them. Adults should be the spiritual parents to the youth; youth should be spiritually parenting the other younger ones as well, sometimes youth can spiritually parent the older folks.

We shouldn't segregate the body of Christ. We need to support one another. God pours out His Spirit unto the young and the old; God's heart for us is to father the fatherless generations.

The blessing flow through Abraham, Isaac then to Jacob. The secret lies within the spiritual parenting - a blessing passes down from a generation to another generation.

When a youth pastor leaves, some young people walk away from God or church. Then the senior pastor hires another youth pastor to "take care" of the kids. Who are these youth pastors? Many of them graduate from seminaries or they need to intern at local churches. It might not be their calling to be youth pastors. Maybe it's a stepping stone for some youth pastors; when they find a better opportunity, they move on. It's hard then for the young people to build trust and a healthier relationship with any spiritual leaders. It is happening among many churches, and I am saying it with a broken heart. Young people become the innocent sacrifice... Then who is really crying out for them?

Indeed we are losing a generation, simply because of our ignorance in spiritual parenting. Whom are we to blame? The lack of youth pastors??? We should look into ourselves and ask: "Are we being the spiritual parents to others?" We shouldn't ask why we don't have more youth pastors; we should ask "whom should I invest my life into?"

I will do everything that I can to produces spiritual parents! That's my life time statement.

Lord, I want to see a generation of patriarch! That's who I am.

Only patriarchs produce patriarchs!

wow...a patriarch, this is the best picture I can find!

gosh... I need to update my blog!

Lord, have mercy on me...

I am getting back to my blog now.

I can't go on one more day without recording Your fingerprints in my life.

Need to get back to "the Invaders"

台灣我愛你MV完整版--「八八水災重建家園」公益關懷

4.03.09-Todd Bentley APOLOGIZES to the Revival Alliance AND THEN the Church

3.21.09 Pt 2 Rick Joyner's weekly report on Todd Bentley

If you have 2 hours to live...

A story of our son, A.J. Lee

Fighting a good fight - A.J. Lee

謝謝大家的禱告。

我和我先生Jack有一段美好的懷孕過程，其中充滿了許多的驚喜， 包括我經歷了無任何morning sickness等一般孕婦常見的症狀等。 直到七個多月的時候， 醫生檢查出寶寶可能基因上有著非遺傳性的突變造成胸腔及四肢骨骼發育不完全等問題。

當時我們簡直無法相信這樣的報告，因為各樣的症狀皆顯示我有個健康的母體，因此無庸置疑地寶寶也應該要是健康的。 我和Jack 來到上帝的面前向祂哭求。 因著我們經常為人禱告並看見上帝大能的醫治彰顯在這些弟兄姐妹的身上，我們深信在神沒有難成的事。 我們對醫生說，每個生命都是個奇蹟，是從上帝而來的禮物，只要寶寶有心跳，我們就會盡力地養育他。

我們接受 並相信上帝一切的安排與祂的計劃，因為祂的意念總是高過我們的意念。 我們更憑著信心為寶寶舉辦了Baby Shower，慶祝上帝給予我們的祝福， 並宣告將一切的榮耀歸給神。 自Baby Shower後 寶寶的胎動更為活躍，這也讓醫生鬆了一口氣。 預產期後過了兩週， 醫生囑咐我們摧生的時候到了，因此Jack 和我於4月24日早晨6時至醫院進行摧生，期間過程十分順利， 我們滿心期待著寶寶的出生，直到寶寶的心跳開始不穩定因而必須緊急決定剖腹生產。

寶寶於4月25日凌晨12時25分出生，我們聽到他那一聲半的哭聲後，因著氧氣輸送不足等種種因素，護士和醫生們隨即進行插管並將寶寶轉移至嬰兒加護病房。 醫生於一個小時後告知我們，寶寶應該撐不下去了。 當下的我們竟出奇的平靜，心中只想著能否抱著他並為他禱告送交至耶穌的懷裡。
寶寶於凌晨2時10分在我和Jack的擁抱下安息主懷了。 在這段生命的旅程中，我和Jack自始至終都充滿著喜樂與平安。 我們深信那 “賞賜的是耶和華，收取的也是耶和華，耶和華的名是應當稱頌的” (約伯記1:21) 。 我們看見上帝在這過程中是完全地掌權。 雖然醫生們有著無數的推測， 但上帝仍然保守了一個奇蹟的誕生。 這也使我們體會到， 無論生命的長短與否， 如何活出生命的價值和影響力其實更為重要。

我們看見寶寶在母腹中與大家的禱告聲中擺上最大的努力，不斷地成長，充滿了活動力。也因此我們得以經歷上帝的手在這當中奇妙的作為。 常常有些弟兄姐妹會因著生命中突如其來的挑戰和困難埋怨神。 因著不明白上帝為何不成就我們的禱告，尤其當我們為別人禱告且對方得著醫治的時候。 每當我們開始問上帝 “為什麼”，其實在不知不覺中 我們的內心已經開始對 神的主權提出了問號，並開始建築一種不諒解的心態，感到上帝似乎冒犯了我們。 這樣的想法和情緒往往成為上帝祝福祂兒女的攔阻，這也是為什麼許多的弟兄姐妹們錯失了神祝福的時機。

我和Jack希望在此勉勵大家與我們一同努力，願你我和主耶穌之間的交流通暢無阻， 每天都活在上帝的同在裡。 在耶穌基督的愛中充滿著盼望與喜樂，每天都經歷那超自然的神蹟奇事隨著來。

Annie & Jack

My Redeemer Lives - Team Hoyt

How much can love be



This is the most touching and inspiring video ever...



One day, a son asks his dad "Daddy, would you like to run a marathon with me?"

The father says "yes". And they run their first marathon together.

Another time, the son asks his dad again "Daddy, would you like to run a marathon with me?

"The father says "yes son".
One day, the son asks his father "Daddy, would you run the Ironman with me?"

The Ironman is the most difficult triathlon ever (4 kms swimming, 180 kms bikin, 42 km running?)

And the dad says "yes".

The story looks simple until you watch the following clip. Just amazing, how much can love be.... ?

Bible Code 2: Apocolypse and beyond part-4

Bible Code 2: Apocolypse and beyond part-3

Bible Code 2: Apocolypse and beyond part-2

Bible Code 2: Apocolypse and beyond part-1

I just watched it on TV...cool that I've found it here on Youtube. Youtube is da bomb!

Basileia tou Theou

Basileia (bas-il-i'-ah) Kingdom of God. Used 163 times in NAS Bible.

I begin to love the sound of the word...

Your Kingdom comes, Lord Jesus!

Nine Year-Old Struck with the Anointing - Glory Falls on WRC

Look at this, Austen! God bless you with His love and mercy!

what's your name, mighty angel?

What's your name, might angel of God?

Ruth, my Korean grandmom's daughter, came to Impact this weekend. The moment she walked in, she felt the presence of God. This weekend, God showed Ruth what He showed her mother when Ruth's mom was praying for me.

1. Ruth had an open vision of what God showed her mother last year. In the vision, God told them what's happening to our ministry and Impact. She will write it down and send it to me. It's such an encouragement from her.

2. An angelic encounter - during Sunday worship, Ruth saw an angel standing on the platform. A huge and mighty angel with the wings wide open ready for action. The angel tells Ruth, God sends him here to Impact. As Johnny was saying, "God, release the angel to minister to us..." the angel told Ruth that he is here all this time and ready to go!

I really want to find out what type of angel God sends us. What's his rank? What's his name? What type of angel? War angel? Messenger angel? Comforting angel? Wow...God is so good!
Lord Jesus, would You revel Your heart and tell us who You are sending to Impact? So we will know what to do next? Amen.

Walking out...

A list of things I do not want to tolerate anymore...

1. diseases
2. sickness/illness
3. cancer
4. lukewarmness
5. apathy/coldness
6. poverty
7. sexual immorality
8. addictions (drugs, alcohol, smoking)
9. addictions (games & cell phones)
10. demonic oppressions

God...I cannot allow these spirits to oppress my brothers and sisters! This is not right!
devil...in the name of Jesus I cancel ALL your stealing from my family! Stop it! In Jesus name!

Another trip to Dr. Morrison's office today...

Sigh...
I am so proud of my dear wife, Annie, she refused to get another ultra sound next week, which means we only have to go to the doctor's office once a week instead of ten million times.

What good is it when the doctor only wants to find out what's "wrong" with Austen? The truth is, there is nothing wrong with Austen; he is just growing slower according to the schedule. But I believe that he will grow in his fullness that God creates him to be; if not, God is still good!

Randy Clark said to his daughter when she didn't get healing in her body, he said I don't know why God is not healing you now, but I can not deny the cross.

I simply can not deny His cross. I pray for more mercy from the Lord, as well as more mercy from the church; so that they will give mercy when we are in need.

Today it's fun to just listen to Randy Clark and Bill Johnson at the Healing School.

Healing School

Well...this post has nothing to do with the healing school that I am attending this week. But since I am attending it, I just want to record it.

Yesterday morning I walked to church, btw the weather was great after almost 2 weeks of spring rain. I love my prayer walk time to church; I always have a great time with Jesus while walking to church. I got this revelation that morning. We can only honor God with our sufferings/persecution while we are living on earth, because once we are in heaven there is no tears, no sufferings and no sorrow. There will not be any opportunity to honor God with hardship in heaven! We can only get rewards while we are on earth; there is no rewards given in heaven!

Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us. (Romans 5:1-5)

Hope in Christ is the end picture!

Rewards from the Lord is my end goal!

Who runs a race doesn't expect for a reward? Stop being religious or hypocritical!

I will exchange my persecutions with crowns and rewards. Only through sufferings I can honor God, only when I honor God I get my rewards. I don't welcome sufferings but I do love God's mercy and His goodness when I am in one. Whenever a trial hits, I get to see God's goodness and His unfailing love. I am encouraged to face any trials when I get to see His glory over my hardship, which is something I won't be able to experience once I am in heaven. In heaven, I believe that I will remember every trials I go through; and Jesus will celebrate my victory with me and angels.

I live to be faithful in honoring God during my tribulation.

That's my revelation while walking to church. Not sure if the reader can get it.

...

I am sick and tired of going to the doctor's office every week...
I am sick and tired of going to the doctor's office every week...
I am sick and tired of going to the doctor's office every week...
I am sick and tired of going to the doctor's office every week...
I am sick and tired of going to the doctor's office every week...
I am sick and tired of going to the doctor's office every week...
I am sick and tired of going to the doctor's office every week...
I am sick and tired...
I am sick and tired...
I am sick and tired...
..... ><

Grow...Austen. Daddy and Mommy will always love you.

Jesus likes me

Jesus likes me...

:)

I like.

School of Disciples - Day 3

Day 3 - School of Disciples

We had a breakthrough today around noon. These past 3 days, only me and Evan gathered for SOD everyday from 10am; sometimes Momo came in late to join us.
First thing we do is go into the Soaking Room and pray for 30 mins before the lectures; we then watch a DVD and discuss it afterwards. Then it's lunch time, my lovely wife brings yummy food to us. Wow...that's something to look forward to.

Today is a bit different.

At the end of the DVD lecture, Evan's head was down; I ask him if he is ok. He then says, I feel like crying because I am going to fail... I didn't understand what he means, first thing that came to me was - let's go to the Soaking Room and pray!
We went in and prayed for 15 mins then we stopped. (Lovely wife brought us lunch, so we stopped) I didn't ask Evan much but I know that the Holy Spirit was doing something. Holy Spirit is the Counselor, He will surely guide Evan. I assigned him to clean up the floor and fix things at church the entire afternoon; without any complain he finished everything I asked him to do. Good thing that we are learning about "Desert Mentality" by Joyce Meyer in our class; first lesson is DO NOT COMPLAIN in times of hardship.
Around 4 pm, I took Evan out to hang out with some high school kids in Arcadia. Before we went out, I told him to observe me and to learn it from me; I am not an expert, but I am willing to be used by God to reach out to the others. Like Apostle Paul says, imitate me as I imitate Christ.

We came back around 6 pm, Evan finally shared with me about what happened earlier. He felt like crying because he knew that his own plan is going to fail. Why? Because now he is going to surrender to God and accept whatever God's plan for him; it's no longer Evan's will be done, but God's will be done in his life.
Evan decides to give up and let go of his plan, and allow God to lead him in this "living by faith" lifestyle. By the way, Evan accepted Jesus in June 2007 after coming out of depression and suicide.

I see a breakthrough in Evan's life today. It's only day 3. I can't wait to see what's gonna happen in day 30.

Pray for Impact SOD.

School of Disciples

We've just started our School of Disciples yesterday; I have been struggling about this training school, because I know that I am not the teacher type of leader. However if this is from God, I will set forth and be led by the Holy Spirit, because it's all about the empowering of the saints. I believe that through this training, we will see teachers, pastors, prophets, apostles and evangelists being raised up to continue equipping the next generation.

I am not looking for quantity, I am looking for quality. God can use a few to defeat many. I want to see the possibility of overcoming the enemy with a small amount of radical believers. God is good and He is able.

Two healings occurred and one confirmation from a word of knowledge after the lecture, isn't that just exciting? One headache got healed - though it's not a huge issue, but God showed up anyway! One person's leg grew out, Peter had uneven legs since he was 7. After a car accident, he couldn't walk like a normal person because one leg is shorter than the other; he had to walk on the tip of this right foot. After prayer, he can walk like a normal person! Praise Jesus!

Get ready, let's take the anointing to our communities! Release the Radicals.

This is Justin

Below it's an email from Justin's mother, Angela. Don't you just love what God is doing? God is so good! He is faithful in Austen's life too!

Dear Pastor Jack,

Thank you for your prayer. Justin is doing very good. He took off the cast on Tuesday. He is very happy. He knows God answer our praying. Justin needs to took X-ray every months to check his left hip (the bone was very thin and fracture caused by a tumor).

The first two month all X-rays shows "not worse" "no change", Dr. could not say "better" to Justin. Even the Dr. didn't know when the cast could take off. Thanks Lord.

This month Justin's bone grow "very good". The bone growth, first outside need to have new bone covered then inside growth. Justin all did this time. Praise Lord! Glory to God!Now, Justin need to use crutches for one month. Then we are waiting for the next X-ray on March 02. We hope Justin can walk normally again at that time. We will continue pray.Thank you again for those brothers and sisters who pray for us. Please see attach pictures.

Angela

Lamaze Class

Unspeakable joy has come upon me today! God is so good. Jesus rocks!

I felt the spirit of joy all over me today although I didn't get to sleep much last night. I feel all your prayers, which have been very effective to Annie and I. I woke up today and decided not to let the devil rob my joy and peace away from me. That's not right to allow the devil stealing my joy, peace and happiness in my (our) life! This has to stop! I am putting on the hat of joy and the garment of praise from now on! This is God's fashion for me, Annie and Austen!

Went to Lamaze class tonight, we watched a clip about the Cesarean Section (C-section). Then I whispered to Annie, I told her that no matter what happens to Austen, we will still have each other. Austen is a only gift from the Lord, and we are called to parent him and walk with him in life. The Lord gives and the Lord takes away, the name of the Lord shall be praised! No hard feeling toward each other or toward God.

All the sudden, I got a call from Ruth (my Korean mother's daughter) from Sacramento. My spiritual mother wanted to call me but she can't speak any English. Korean spiritual mom prayed with Ruth yesterday and here is what Ruth told me tonight.

My spiritual mom says, in my open vision I see the child is the work of God. He is called to be great, mighty in the Lord. (hmm...she doesn't know what we name the boy yet as I am writing it) God wants you to stand firm and you ought to pray for your son with the healing anointing God gives you. This is a breakthrough for you and your ministry. This is God's test for you; He is going to take you to the next level when you pass it. The whole church will receive the breakthrough in healing and miracles as you receive it. More healing will happen at your church. You and your church will see God's glory. Don't think too little of yourself. Stand firm. I am praying for you and your son everyday. Shout Hallelujah, you will overcome.

I think that's all she said to me tonight. I told Ruth about the meaning of the name Austen Javelin Lee, so that she can tell my Korean mother. He is called the great spear of Yahshua (Jesus). I was full of joy when Ruth prayed for me; on the other side of the line, Ruth was feeling a strong presence of the Lord, she said.
I looked up the sky...there were many stars, I saw a really bright one; then I called myself the father of nations.

I decide to take back my joy, peace and happiness from the devil. You, the devil, has no right to mess with us because Austen, Annie and myself belong to Jesus!

I miss my Korean spiritual mother.

Spirit of the Lord

"The earth was without form, and void; and darkness was on the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters." (Gen. 1:2)

Yes...the Spirit of God is hovering over Austen Javelin Lee. God's power and love incubate over Austen now. Amen.

For the past few days I wept just like Mary and Martha; when their brother Lazarus died, they came to Jesus thinking that Jesus "could have" come earlier and done something before their brother's death. Annie and I have hugged each other and wept when we pray. I have come to realize that God calls me an overcomer for a reason. God calls me an overcomer to lift up His name! He puts me through fire and water to toughen me up for greater challenges, I believe.

More I think about all these prophetic words from different people, more I become to appreciate what God is doing in my life. From the world's point of view, my life kindda sucks; but from God's point of view, I am great. So will be Austen (and his brothers and sisters).

"As for me and my family will serve the Lord." I kept praying over this when I was worshiping this past Sunday. Annie, myself and our children will serve God no matter what happens in our life. I was kneeling, weeping and praying before the Lord, and all the sudden I felt this warm electricity and numbness going through my hands and arms. It just got stronger and thicker; something I never felt before, eventually my arms, hands and fingers froze and twisted. I couldn't move my arms, hands or fingers at all; more I prayed "as for me and my family will serve the Lord", more electricity came upon my hands. I knew that God was ministering to me, maybe it was angels or maybe it was Jesus Himself. God was holding my hands in such a trial like this. He loves me so much.

"I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear, But now my eye sees You." (Job 42:5)

I not only wanna know about You, I want to know You.

Chinese New Year

I wept for two days...after the ultra sound report. I didn't want to get up from my bed; I felt like a nightmare coming at me and I couldn't wake up. I just don't know how to pray then. God is good, I know. But I didn't feel His goodness at that moment. I didn't ask WHY, I believe that He is in total control; I just refused to believe that negative report. With helplessness and pity, I stand silent before Him; I want to believe miracles, but I want it now.

Now I need prayer more than ever. This is probably the weakest moment in my life. God is always bigger than Satan's afflictions.

New Wineskin

Impact is a R&D department. I am so proud of you guys who are willing to follow this crazy R&D idea. After seeing how others pastor their churches, I am more confident and excited of what God is calling me to do. Hahaha...I am so blessed by this good God. Research and Development, oh ya baby! Research new gifted ppl and develop each one of us to fulfill our callings in Christ!

I am a world class leader! hahaha... I see that in you, Jack.

• Culture Revolutionist - To Overcome and To Reform
• Healing Revivalist - To Activate and To Empower
• Radical Dreamer - To Challenge and To Influence

New wine in a new wineskin.

God shows up again without any delay!

This is Justin... Pray for him that God heals Justin's cancer, Langerhans' Cell Histiocytosis(LCH).

What's LCH? Click this link...

for English

http://www.jhscout.org/types/histiocytosis.cfm

for Chinese

http://tw.search.yahoo.com/search/kp?fr=yfp&ei=UTF-8&p=LCH

When the Holy Spirit said, keep worshiping after our 1 hour and 15 min worship, I felt the warmth and electricity all over my right hand like what I felt in Lakeland, Florida.

Many felt the same electricity/numbness all over the hands and bodies. That happened today during worship! He is so good. Ya, God!

God so loves us and He wants to touch us with His mercy and power! Know that I will hug our little Beanie similar way God hugs us.

week 28 - Little Beanie

I think I am getting ready to take care of a baby now. I am gonna be a good father; that's my prayer for life. Well...just look at the picture and know that I am prepared. Little Beanie opens and closes eyes now in mommy's womb. Wow...what's that like, huh baby?

I love you, Little Beanie.

oh...little beanie

Little Beanie can open and close his/her eyes now, he is also sucking his fingers; the book says that mom can feel his/her hiccups now and then. Little Beanie has been kicking very often lately. I enjoy watching your movement, 'lil Beanie! :)

The book says...

This week, your baby weighs almost 2 pounds (like a head of cauliflower) and is about 14 1/2 inches long with her legs extended. She's sleeping and waking at regular intervals, opening and closing her eyes, and perhaps even sucking her fingers. With more brain tissue developing, your baby's brain is very active now. While her lungs are still immature, they would be capable of functioning — with a lot of medical help — if she were born now. Chalk up any tiny rhythmic movements you may be feeling to a case of baby hiccups, which may be common from now on. Each episode usually lasts only a few moments, and they don't bother her, so just relax and enjoy the tickle.

Happy 2009!

Pictures of how we spent our last night of 2008 and what it looked like in Taipei! That's right! Enoch kicked everyone's butt! aha!

Year 2009, here we come! Where to? Haha...