picture of Your love

I got up this morning feeling tired. First thing I soaked in His presence, I didn't get much, didn't feel much. Showered and prayed then got ready to head out.

Driving back from LAX, all the sudden I began to ask the Lord to fill me up with His presence. The ache of my heart for God came back to me and hit me pretty hard while I was driving. I need to feel God every moment; I asked myself, "Is this what I want?" Such a longing heart. Is this from me or Him? I didn't care much anyway. Just want to know that He is near.

Auntie Sharon spoke to me about some leaders "playing with power" last night. I hope I am never that kind of person; but the power of God is very addictive (everything about God is addictive, I think). I don't want to play with Your power, Lord. I just want to enjoy Your love and accompany.

Hmm....

I was mad but sad at the same time when Evan told me about his experience at his old church this past Sunday. Evan said, "they are still doing the same things and singing the same songs when I was there 2 years ago. All young people left. Their messages are different from ours."

How can any Christians live without God's dominion? How can any Christians live by rules and traditions only and expect no blessings, no healing, no miracles from God?

Grrrr....I can't stand that! But I weep for them inside.

He draws a pretty picture for me today on my way back from LAX. Thank You, Jesus.