fear

Fear...

I have not had a sense of fear for a long time. Some people are going through tough times; they even try to hide themselves from the Lord (of course it doesn't work!). Anyway, my heart cried with them but I felt powerless to do anything for them. It's not my field to plow, I think. At least I tried. But I did pray a prayer that I wanted to feel how they feel; so that I could better help them. So God answered my prayer.

Annie and I are running very low financially this month. I had no cash to even put gas in the car this week. I was driving on an empty tank literally from Monday to Wednesday. The gas gauge showed below empty for 3 days but I was still driving from Arcadia to Cerritos then back to Arcadia on Tuesday. On Wednesday, the tank already showed empty for 2 days but I had to go down to Fullerton from Arcadia. I was worried while driving down to Fullerton. I don't know how to get back home... I don't want to push the car home... so I prayed.

One prayer - "Lord, please clear out the traffic like You divided the Red Sea." On Tuesday night as I drove back, the traffic was horrible on Fwy 605; I was afraid that on Wednesday it would be the same too.

Another prayer - "Lord, let the angels push my car back home. In Jesus' name."

As I was driving back, all the sudden, fear came around me. I was "afraid" that I couldn't go home. The feeling of insecurity surrounded me and I couldn't think positively about God. I was worried. Nevertheless I began to pray in tongue and praised God loudly in my car, but I couldn't feel the car was moving any faster.

While praising God, God reminded me of my prayer for those people who are going through tough times. He told me that this "fear and insecurity" is what some people are feeling; they are worried about their now and then. It's really about money.

I had no money to put gas in the car this time. Honestly my faith is being tested. God doesn't test the evil; God tests the good. Because I am created to be good, that's why God tests me! I thank God! Stay strong! Stand firm! God is good! I believe in Jehovah Jireh.

To those who are going through tough times...

I understand why you want to run away... when I found out about A.J.'s condition, I wanted to run away from God too. I was speechless toward my son's situation. It was not easy.

It costs me a son to know this truth... Instead of running away from God, I chose to run to Him. I overcame. You can too. Start running to God now.

When we ask God for more faith, God gives us more trials to exercise our faith muscle. That means we will face more obstacles and challenges! That's how our faith is being increased!

God, You are so wise!