did you feel that, Jack?

I can feel my child kicking!!!

This week I've finally felt our child kicking in Annie's belly. OMG! First time I put my hand over Annie's belly and waited for a good 10 sec; the child kicked back at my hand with so much strength. I laughed so hard! This is the joy of being a father. Although I don't see the baby yet, I know the child is there being nurturing and actively kicking inside of mommy's womb. God, this is amazing!

Went to Annie's company party, a guy whose wife is almost due says to me, "just wait until you put your face over the belly when the baby kicks, that's totally called the joy of father." I believe so. We talked about the fatherhood throughout the conversation. Others warn us about the mess the child can bring...well, I know it will be messy, but I still want to choose over the happiness of being a dad.

I can feel my child kicking!

Father God, I want to make You laugh too. I know You always do.

One lousy day?

It's gonna look like Christmas! I wish it's snowing here in LA.
I walked to church today again; I began to sing in spirit and started to make up lyrics, it has been a while since last time I sang something cute and funny yet "spiritual"...haha...

I like walking to church now.

After the Prophetic Art class, Annie and I went to Paul's house for another prayer meeting. Some pastor's wife prayed for me, it was encouraging and uplifting; things she prayed for once again reminded me of God's promises during these past 3 years. Just another confirmations of what God wants to do in my life. Fun stuff.

Suck at time management today. Totally wasted my day cuz of my stupidity in life/time/goal management. Sorry, I killed you, time... :(

spiritually circumcised

Are you spiritually circumcised?

Joshua 5 - After the crossing of the Jordan, God told Joshua to circumcise the nation of Israel. A whole nation needs to be clean and set apart before the Lord in a time of war! In front of the enemy, God wants us to consecrate ourselves and enjoy the feast. After the circumcision, the Israelites had their first Passover since the departure from Egypt. It was a time of celebration of God's deliverance and a time of thanksgiving. God prepares a banquet before our enemy!



God wants our spiritual foreskin, our hindrance, our spiritual fat!

In a time of crisis and hardship, God wants to remove our pride, self-indulgence, self-pity and shame. These are the blockages that hinder us from knowing His will. God is good ALL the time even when we don't understand it. It's the season of rebuilding His image in us, starting from the removal of our spiritual foreskin (Joshua 5).

Lord, keep me, save me and make me stronger in a time of crisis. Amen.

How long?

How much longer is this test, Lord? As I said, it's not a matter of WHY, but WHEN.

Strengthen me and pray for me, Lord, so that I can endure it in a time of hardship.
As I remember Your word, it's a dishonor to Your name when I become poor and steal.

"Two things I request of You (Deprive me not before I die): Remove falsehood and lies far from me; Give me neither poverty nor riches--Feed me with the food allotted to me; Lest I be full and deny You, And say, "Who is the LORD?" Or lest I be poor and steal, And profane the name of my God." (Proverbs 30:7-9)

Father, show me a way and I will follow. With all I am, I worship You. With all I have, I surrender all. Don't let the enemy triumph over me, but prepare a banquet before my enemy as I gladly receive the feast You have for me.

Life is often lived forward, but understood backward.
I am not asking to understand it all, but I need You to strengthen me in a time of crisis.
Bless You, Jesus.

Nov. 2008 in Taiwan

I am back from a trip to Taiwan for my grandfather's funeral. It was a trip of self reflecting and family gathering. I need to put myself together now...I am tired.

The Story of Prop 8

Love is kind.

Pre-Election weekend

Wow...what a weekend! I am really lazy to repeat what Jasmine has already written down, so I am simply gonna copy hers and add more afterthoughts.

from Jasmine's blog not wasteful

Sat. Nov. 1st - the CALL
I started weeping non-stop right after I found a seat, which was around 9:50 am. I wept so hard, my eyes got tired before 11 am. Whenever people on the stage said, God bless America, I wept. God was there; this is His hour. Lord, have mercy!

Sun. Nov. 2nd - Rally in LA
As we arrived LA city hall, I thought to myself that we were not really needed at the rally. When Annie called and said that there were some "NO on Prop. 8" supports at the voting booth. That got me thinking about going to the "front line" where the action should be.
At the city hall, we are very much "protected"; if we want more "impact" we should go over to the voting booth and face the protesters, right? It was FUN when people yelled at us and called us names, etc. It's totally a "嗆聲" (confrontation) between both sides although we did it with love and patience. Some people accused us and criticized of the godly values we believe in, but I know that God is happy that we were there!

Impact people, I am so proud of you! You are so radical! You are the Gideon army that fears nothing but God! You guys rock!

For those people who want to know more about the importance and details of Propl 8, please go to Jaeson Ma's blog.

WE NEED MORAL CLARITY - Jaeson Ma


God bless America.